SCAVENGER HUNT IN OSLO

Once I landed I got a call from the owner of the hostel. When I booked it, I thought it was a hotel. I just wanted to have my own room and my own space. The scavenger hunt started. Where I got sent from one location to another. Btw apparently booking.com has a messenger where you can contact your guest and tell them stuff. 

Well, can’t reach your guest if you don’t have internet in another country. Luckily she called me serval times and tried to guide me to the hostel.

Everything you need to know about this adventure is documented in the video above. The moment I arrived and did my little video, my mom called me and told me that something horrible had happened . My jaw dropped, my eyes began to fill with water and I couldn’t release any sound out of my body. I was stunned.

Life has to continue. I automatically woke up at 5am and had 4h of sleep. But I really wanted to do my reels so I woke up went to the living room and did Pilates on the ground. I freaking love Pilates and I am so grateful that I found something that feels so effortless and save to do. 

In my reality, Pilates is literally laying on the ground and just moving your legs . Especially in the morning if I don’t have time to go to the gym or like in Oslo no chance to do so..

(Yall know what I am really good at now 😏 jk guys jk)

I wanted to share the tragic story of my dog with my friends. Literally with my people. Those who know about me and my real name. Those I’ve met in person and actually have a personal relationship with.

What a blessing to know you.

It was time not to be stuck in the past anymore and move on with my life. My little baby doggy sister will always be with me. Her energy will never disappear from this earth and it will always linger and protect me.

I pulled myself together and moved to the coffee shop. The sun was not shining and the coffee shop was close by. It was really cute. I loved the aesthetic, the coziness and the little corner I found for myself. It was time to do the edits where I actually earned money. 

I wanna be transparent.. for lunch I got myself curry but doing this decision what to eat took me literally 20min. I judged myself after 10min already. I know my problem and my issue with making choices and I believe deeply that i am not the only one dealing with this issue in her day to day life. This is why I am doing all of this. 

If you grew up in a toxic environment it feels like you don’t know anymore what is right or wrong because we got taught that the toxic habits are good. For example wanting to look skinny is unhealthy. You better eat 5x a day because your family loves you. The intention of course is not bad but saying no is also not an option because suddenly you rude and not respecting the culture. 

I was chilling my ass down for 1 or 2 hours. Honestly I lost track of time. There I was sitting there with no internet. But ain’t wasting my time cause that feels crazy. I pulled out my journal which I am carrying with me 24/7. It’s my support cat. Always with me. I used that time and journaled the shit out of it. 

Guys I was so satisfied let me tell yall. 

What to write after journaling ? Even I wrote down my goals and my focus so many times. Repetition is key to success and redefinition. 

That’s what I believe so far. 

So what’s my focus. Let’s do it together.

Grab a pen of paper and try it out.

Video editing. Again, I am really grateful for the opportunities I am receiving. My goal is again to be a musician and go on tour. I want to do it but for now step by step. I am really grateful for the opportunities I am receiving and I do not want to let them slip. 

I have three goals. Finally putting myself out on social media and benefiting others in their own way, selfishly doing music for myself and expressing my feelings in melody and lastly university, to have a better understanding of the entertainment industry. Everything is not priority. Everything else can wait a bit cause nothing is forever. 

I started to write down what I actually want to achieve this year and tried to keep it as less and realistic as possible. Few minutes later it was done and now?

Now I suddenly had nothing to write and the stadium was still empty. Suddenly a thought shoot through my mind. 

I’ve done it once in my whole life. 7 years ago I wrote down what I wanna achieve in 4 years time. I did everything I wanted to do. 

Speaking fluently English and being able to communicate with people all around the world, Living in Japan, working as an international model, simply living and working in different cities. Meeting and having heartfelt conversation with many people. I did it . But … 2 years ago.. I had no goals no more. My ego always said, I don’t need to be rich or famous to be happy. Facts. But what’s wrong about wanting those things in this lifetime. I was always told it’s not the goal in life. It will ruin you. But what if I just want it? Is it selfish? Will I harm someone with these thoughts? I don’t think so . It’s time..

I wrote down what I want to achieve in 4 years time and the list got long. I don’t care how ridiculous it sounds now. These are my goals and it’s my responsibility towards myself to enjoy these goals because.. why the fuck not. I can do the fuck I want. Literally. But do it focused and choose one thing. I chose music. Not because it’s my destiny or manifestation but because I simply chose it. I learned that re-questioning your choices is the biggest harm that you can do for yourself. But let’s talk about this topic next time cause I really wanna talk about the comedy show.

First of all dear Matt rife if you happen to read this one day I wanna share my gratefulness for you. You got me out of depression last year and I am deeply deeply grateful for your dedication towards your own passion. I always loved comedy and it always boots my dopamine moving me forward to happier moments. I laughed so hard in Oslo. I hope one day I get the chance to work with you in collaboration. There is so much space for creation in this generation. You changed my life and so many more. Thank you for being part of my journey. I will from now on do the same. 

Wanting to live the moment but have to do be on the phone to promote myself? God damn it. Let’s do that shit. 

Fill your time with the activities that moves the needle. If you drawn to something subconsciously it’s because you feel deeply about it. That’s your intuition talking to you. Fuck that . She’s just telling you what you like. But you wanna talk to your mind too. It’s like a container. 

E.g 

My mind decided to hit the gym because it has future benefits. I hate to hit the gym. That’s the mind decision. The container that you force yourself to do. Now we infuse the intuition . How can I make it as comfortable and effortless as possible so I can actually love the gym? Loving the container that I put myself into? 

I choose an activity that I would actually enjoy.

For me it’s Pilates. Now gym is fun. It feels save and not scary anymore. 

Do you currently have the same issue? 

I honestly feel you. Y’all know what comes next.

Do you? Watch me and see. Give me and yourself a chance to actually change your own life .

Let’s fucking go. It’s safe here in my bvnnySpace.

-BVNNY <3